Week 12 – Take Two

So I messed up my first go at week 12, about 3 days in – complete disaster – and decided to call it a holiday – mentally I just needed a break. So I started again this week. There is something in the threes for me – I seem to hit hard patches – three days, three weeks and three months.

I have been feeling a bit off colour the past 2 weeks as well which has not helped. To keep it simple I just tracked the exercise – every session done – Friday at a reduced pace because it was all I could to do drag myself anywhere near the treadmill! After much procrastination today’s session was finally done on incline, walking instead of run/walk on the flat, just couldn’t face the more jarring form, – made sure the effort was the same though, enjoyed the change – wondering whether I should incorporate some incline walking.

Goals for Week Thirteen

  • 2 x 30 min walk jog sessions (25min at 6.5kph, last 5 min at 7kph)
  • 2 x 50 min walk jog (maybe slower incline walk instead) sessions (45min at 6.5kph, last 5 min at 7kph)
  • 1 x 60 min walk jog sessions (55min at 6.5kph, last 5 min at 7kph)

Week Eleven – emotional eating

It’s been a funny week this past week and I must confess to some emotional eating.

This recession really seems to be bringing out the worse in some people at work. I really am so tired of office politics, unethical people who will step on anyone to achieve their ambitions, workplace bullies and feeling powerless to do anything. This is not happening to me directly, it is happening to my partner, who comes home every night in a thoroughly dejected state because of their current work environment. I just don’t know what to do. Watching someone I love so much, someone who is capable of building so much and who is especially talented at turning negative situations into positives, but who is now losing self confidence and is too afraid to move/talk for fear of repercussions. Given that the organisation being worked for is there to empower their clients it utterly astounds me that the culture that the employees work under is one of fear and blame, plus there is a now ever present threat of job loss. Work colleagues who profess to be friends will stab each other in a back as soon as look at each other. Horrible – whatever happened to loyalty and having each other backs.

While it is a difficult situation, for the most part I try to block the feelings I have about this out – I do not want it to colour my outlook – I have so much to be thankful for and some amazingly kind and generous people in my life. Just a shame about the a***holes.

With that in mind the exercise sessions have felt like a positive diversion and a step forward this week – and as such easier to do. I am now working at increasing my times and varying the lengths of the sessions – hoping to get to four and a half hours per week in the not too distant. Despite the emotional eating I did achieve a small weight loss (500g) which is encouraging after feeling stuck over the past few weeks.

Week Eleven - Personal ProgressGoals for Week Twelve

  • 2 x 30 min walk jog sessions (25min at 6.5kph, last 5 min at 7kph)
  • 2 x 45 min walk jog sessions (40min at 6.5kph, last 5 min at 7kph)
  • 1 x 50 min walk jog sessions (45min at 6.5kph, last 5 min at 7kph)

Week Ten – increasing exercise times

It’s amazing how 5 minutes extra exercise can do my head in. I am seriously grumpy.

This week I increased 3 sessions by (only) five minutes and I found myself mentally fighting the new time… hating every extra second – it felt like forever! This is the price to pay for years of doing lots of wrong things, I am now dragging myself kicking and screaming like a 2 year old, back down a long slow path towards fitness, and I am not happy about it at all.

Well I heard the expression “Harden Up Princess” this week and It spoke to me… so onward to week 11 with further increases in times. Grit teeth and move ahead.

My work commitments are full on this week so I am just going to focus on getting the exercise sessions done.

I have been unsuccessful yet again in cutting the weekly smoking session out but I am noticing the benefits of less wine and cigarettes which is great. Last time I was running a lot I found that as my exercise times increased my desire to smoke disappeared naturally and wine started tasting like poison and I stopped both about halfway through training for a half marathon without really trying – maybe that is what I should do – trying to force it is not working.

Goals for Week Eleven

  • 2 x 30 min walk jog sessions (25min at 6.5kph, last 5 min at 7kph)
  • 3 x 40 min walk jog sessions (35min at 6.5kph, last 5 min at 7kph)

Week Nine – found muscles in legs!

Week nine felt kind of uneventful really so I won’t bore you by rattling on.
Did my five exercise sessions – no problems with hip this week, so will increment by 10% (15 min) next week.
Blew the not smoking by Wednesday.
Slight weigh loss.

And the best part…

EXCITEMENT… Found some wee running muscles developing under the fat! YES!

Goals for Week Ten

  • 2 x 30 min walk jog sessions (25min at 6.5kph, last 5 min at 7kph)
  • 3 x 35 min walk jog sessions (30min at 6.5kph, last 5 min at 7kph)
  • No cigarettes, sigh
  • Monitor food, drink water and daily weigh ins

Back on track in week eight

A sore hip meant I was unable to complete two of the treadmill sessions this week. Not quite sure what I managed to do to cause the soreness, at first I thought perhaps I had slept funny, then I decided maybe it was old age and a sign that I was finally on the road to falling apart. Anyway a few days rest and the soreness has gone, with only a slight niggle – so with that I decided to get back on the treadmill today as planned – will see what tomorrow brings.

Managed to keep the cigarettes at bay, despite some very bad news on the work front for my partner – which will more than likely leave us without any regular income for a while. Very scary… so there have been times when I could have absolutely murdered a cigarette over the past week.

Food was ok. I seem to start the weeks with a hiss and a roar, happily eating tuna and salads, and drinking water, but by Thursday I get bored, graze a bit more and want cheesy pasta stodge, Mmmmmmmmm. From last week I am down 3.1kg. Need to make some better progress with the weight loss if I am to start increasing the exercise sessions.

Other cool news… I am very lucky to have finally found a training buddy – she is a good friend who lives a few hours drive away who wants to improve her fitness also. We have set up a small private Facebook page so we can keep tabs on each others progress and motivation. Until now I have always kept this stuff to myself, my partner or shared with people I don’t know (eg WW groups) so this is really different for me. Despite my general reluctance to ever ask for help it has actually been a relief to finally share it with some one I know and trust. Nice feeling.

Week eight and I am back on trackGoals for Week Nine

  • 5 x 30 min walk jog sessions (25min at 6.5kph, last 5 min at 7kph)
  • No cigarettes
  • Monitor food, drink water and daily weigh ins as per last week

10 Questions That Create Success

This was in my inbox this morning.

If you want to read the full article by Geoffery James it’s here at www.inc.com.

  1. Have I made certain that those I love feel loved?
  2. Have I done something today that improved the world?
  3. Have I conditioned my body to be more strong flexible and resilient?
  4. Have I reviewed and honed my plans for the future?
  5. Have I acted in private with the same integrity I exhibit in public?
  6. Have I avoided unkind words and deeds?
  7. Have I accomplished something worthwhile?
  8. Have I helped someone less fortunate?
  9. Have I collected some wonderful memories?
  10. Have I felt grateful for the incredible gift of being alive?

A  good list of questions to keep things in perspective on good and bad days.

🙂

Week 7 – pits of despair!

Week seven and I find myself reaching an all time low – heaviest weight ever as well as smoking and drinking too much. It’s been harder than I thought to get back on track after Christmas. So disappointed in myself – the result of Sunday morning’s weigh in sees me berating myself for being utterly useless – as part of my punishment I decide to double the planned 30 minute session on the treadmill to 60 minutes – basically to make up for missing Friday’s session. I know this is not what you are supposed to do but it turned out to be a good thing – started out really angry calling myself all the good for nothing names under the sun, by halfway I had started to calm down and started to tell myself to get over it, giving myself a kick up the pants of the more positive kind. By the end I had resolved to do better in week eight. Felt too ashamed to post my results until now – even considered lying – duh… how pointless is that.

I appear to be back on track 98.8 this morning. Yay for Tuna salad wraps!
Determined to keep it positive!

Well here they are – my dreadful stats for last week…

Goals for Week Eight

Primary Goals

  • 5 x 30 min walk jog sessions (increase pace to 6.5kph)
  • No cigarettes all week

Secondary Goals

  • Monitor food more closely – portion control, snacks and no seconds
  • Drink at least 2 bottles of water per day
  • Daily weigh ins