Week Eleven – emotional eating

It’s been a funny week this past week and I must confess to some emotional eating.

This recession really seems to be bringing out the worse in some people at work. I really am so tired of office politics, unethical people who will step on anyone to achieve their ambitions, workplace bullies and feeling powerless to do anything. This is not happening to me directly, it is happening to my partner, who comes home every night in a thoroughly dejected state because of their current work environment. I just don’t know what to do. Watching someone I love so much, someone who is capable of building so much and who is especially talented at turning negative situations into positives, but who is now losing self confidence and is too afraid to move/talk for fear of repercussions. Given that the organisation being worked for is there to empower their clients it utterly astounds me that the culture that the employees work under is one of fear and blame, plus there is a now ever present threat of job loss. Work colleagues who profess to be friends will stab each other in a back as soon as look at each other. Horrible – whatever happened to loyalty and having each other backs.

While it is a difficult situation, for the most part I try to block the feelings I have about this out – I do not want it to colour my outlook – I have so much to be thankful for and some amazingly kind and generous people in my life. Just a shame about the a***holes.

With that in mind the exercise sessions have felt like a positive diversion and a step forward this week – and as such easier to do. I am now working at increasing my times and varying the lengths of the sessions – hoping to get to four and a half hours per week in the not too distant. Despite the emotional eating I did achieve a small weight loss (500g) which is encouraging after feeling stuck over the past few weeks.

Week Eleven - Personal ProgressGoals for Week Twelve

  • 2 x 30 min walk jog sessions (25min at 6.5kph, last 5 min at 7kph)
  • 2 x 45 min walk jog sessions (40min at 6.5kph, last 5 min at 7kph)
  • 1 x 50 min walk jog sessions (45min at 6.5kph, last 5 min at 7kph)

Week Ten – increasing exercise times

It’s amazing how 5 minutes extra exercise can do my head in. I am seriously grumpy.

This week I increased 3 sessions by (only) five minutes and I found myself mentally fighting the new time… hating every extra second – it felt like forever! This is the price to pay for years of doing lots of wrong things, I am now dragging myself kicking and screaming like a 2 year old, back down a long slow path towards fitness, and I am not happy about it at all.

Well I heard the expression “Harden Up Princess” this week and It spoke to me… so onward to week 11 with further increases in times. Grit teeth and move ahead.

My work commitments are full on this week so I am just going to focus on getting the exercise sessions done.

I have been unsuccessful yet again in cutting the weekly smoking session out but I am noticing the benefits of less wine and cigarettes which is great. Last time I was running a lot I found that as my exercise times increased my desire to smoke disappeared naturally and wine started tasting like poison and I stopped both about halfway through training for a half marathon without really trying – maybe that is what I should do – trying to force it is not working.

Goals for Week Eleven

  • 2 x 30 min walk jog sessions (25min at 6.5kph, last 5 min at 7kph)
  • 3 x 40 min walk jog sessions (35min at 6.5kph, last 5 min at 7kph)

Week Nine – found muscles in legs!

Week nine felt kind of uneventful really so I won’t bore you by rattling on.
Did my five exercise sessions – no problems with hip this week, so will increment by 10% (15 min) next week.
Blew the not smoking by Wednesday.
Slight weigh loss.

And the best part…

EXCITEMENT… Found some wee running muscles developing under the fat! YES!

Goals for Week Ten

  • 2 x 30 min walk jog sessions (25min at 6.5kph, last 5 min at 7kph)
  • 3 x 35 min walk jog sessions (30min at 6.5kph, last 5 min at 7kph)
  • No cigarettes, sigh
  • Monitor food, drink water and daily weigh ins