It’s been a funny week this past week and I must confess to some emotional eating.
This recession really seems to be bringing out the worse in some people at work. I really am so tired of office politics, unethical people who will step on anyone to achieve their ambitions, workplace bullies and feeling powerless to do anything. This is not happening to me directly, it is happening to my partner, who comes home every night in a thoroughly dejected state because of their current work environment. I just don’t know what to do. Watching someone I love so much, someone who is capable of building so much and who is especially talented at turning negative situations into positives, but who is now losing self confidence and is too afraid to move/talk for fear of repercussions. Given that the organisation being worked for is there to empower their clients it utterly astounds me that the culture that the employees work under is one of fear and blame, plus there is a now ever present threat of job loss. Work colleagues who profess to be friends will stab each other in a back as soon as look at each other. Horrible – whatever happened to loyalty and having each other backs.
While it is a difficult situation, for the most part I try to block the feelings I have about this out – I do not want it to colour my outlook – I have so much to be thankful for and some amazingly kind and generous people in my life. Just a shame about the a***holes.
With that in mind the exercise sessions have felt like a positive diversion and a step forward this week – and as such easier to do. I am now working at increasing my times and varying the lengths of the sessions – hoping to get to four and a half hours per week in the not too distant. Despite the emotional eating I did achieve a small weight loss (500g) which is encouraging after feeling stuck over the past few weeks.
Goals for Week Twelve
- 2 x 30 min walk jog sessions (25min at 6.5kph, last 5 min at 7kph)
- 2 x 45 min walk jog sessions (40min at 6.5kph, last 5 min at 7kph)
- 1 x 50 min walk jog sessions (45min at 6.5kph, last 5 min at 7kph)
A sore hip meant I was unable to complete two of the treadmill sessions this week. Not quite sure what I managed to do to cause the soreness, at first I thought perhaps I had slept funny, then I decided maybe it was old age and a sign that I was finally on the road to falling apart. Anyway a few days rest and the soreness has gone, with only a slight niggle – so with that I decided to get back on the treadmill today as planned – will see what tomorrow brings.
Managed to keep the cigarettes at bay, despite some very bad news on the work front for my partner – which will more than likely leave us without any regular income for a while. Very scary… so there have been times when I could have absolutely murdered a cigarette over the past week.
Food was ok. I seem to start the weeks with a hiss and a roar, happily eating tuna and salads, and drinking water, but by Thursday I get bored, graze a bit more and want cheesy pasta stodge, Mmmmmmmmm. From last week I am down 3.1kg. Need to make some better progress with the weight loss if I am to start increasing the exercise sessions.
Other cool news… I am very lucky to have finally found a training buddy – she is a good friend who lives a few hours drive away who wants to improve her fitness also. We have set up a small private Facebook page so we can keep tabs on each others progress and motivation. Until now I have always kept this stuff to myself, my partner or shared with people I don’t know (eg WW groups) so this is really different for me. Despite my general reluctance to ever ask for help it has actually been a relief to finally share it with some one I know and trust. Nice feeling.
Goals for Week Nine
- 5 x 30 min walk jog sessions (25min at 6.5kph, last 5 min at 7kph)
- No cigarettes
- Monitor food, drink water and daily weigh ins as per last week
Week seven and I find myself reaching an all time low – heaviest weight ever as well as smoking and drinking too much. It’s been harder than I thought to get back on track after Christmas. So disappointed in myself – the result of Sunday morning’s weigh in sees me berating myself for being utterly useless – as part of my punishment I decide to double the planned 30 minute session on the treadmill to 60 minutes – basically to make up for missing Friday’s session. I know this is not what you are supposed to do but it turned out to be a good thing – started out really angry calling myself all the good for nothing names under the sun, by halfway I had started to calm down and started to tell myself to get over it, giving myself a kick up the pants of the more positive kind. By the end I had resolved to do better in week eight. Felt too ashamed to post my results until now – even considered lying – duh… how pointless is that.
I appear to be back on track 98.8 this morning. Yay for Tuna salad wraps!
Determined to keep it positive!
Well here they are – my dreadful stats for last week…
Goals for Week Eight
- 5 x 30 min walk jog sessions (increase pace to 6.5kph)
- No cigarettes all week
- Monitor food more closely – portion control, snacks and no seconds
- Drink at least 2 bottles of water per day
- Daily weigh ins
This is one of my go to dinners when I can’t be bothered with cooking but want something healthy and quick. I usually cook the sauce ahead of time making a double batch to freeze it in cup lots – one cup of sauce is enough for 2 people.
- Large bunch of spinach (rinsed, stalks removed)
- 1 onion chopped
- 1-2 tsp chicken stock powder
- 3 cloves of garlic (peeled, end cut off)
- 1 tbs olive oil
- Salt and pepper to taste
Using a steamer pot, add the onion, garlic, oil, chicken stock and pepper to the bottom pot, add enough water to cover and to ensure the pot does not boil dry when steaming the spinach. Place the spinach in the top steamer pot and turn the heat on to high. Check on the spinach from time to time – turn it over to speed cooking time. Keep and eye on the water to make sure it does not boil dry. The onions should be cooked and the spinach soft within 10-15 min. Allow to cool a bit then transfer the whole lot to a blender and blend until smooth – add more water at this stage if you think it needs it. Check seasoning and add salt and pepper to taste. This should make enough for 4-6 people.
Quick dinner for two
- 1 cup hot spinach sauce
- 200 – 240g dry spaghetti
- 1 head of broccoli
- grated parmesan cheese
Cook the spaghetti according to the packet instructions, cut the broccoli into pieces and steam. When the spaghetti has cooked, drain and stir through the sauce. Pile into a pasta bowl along with the broccoli and sprinkle with parmesan cheese. Yum.